Sunday, October 18, 2009

The beginning. To blog or not to blog...

Left out, that was how I felt. Everyone was doing it....is it really for me? Time will tell won't it? I decided that I needed to make a list of things that I need to accomplish before turning 21 for the 4th or 5th time ...

**This is a bit of a tangent but one of my favorite hobbies is admiring cake "artist" or decorators. The photo to the left is actually a cake with large amounts of chocolate...Yeah that is gonna put someone into a sugar coma. I found this cake and some recipes on http://cakesbyrosa.wordpress.com/. I also love trying out recipes that I find off the internet. We all need a hobby I just wish mine wasn't one that adds girth. Now back to our regularly scheduled broadcast.***

...I figured that I needed to get with the program and get a blog out there. Okay so now I have one right? and I have no Idea as to what I am going to blog about; there are too many fashion blogs, I love to cook but don't have enough material to talk about it in a blog, I like to do hair but don't want to talk about that on a regular basis. One of my friends stated that I should make it a diary type of blogging. So until I find sokme other useful idea for this thing, diary it is.

I am about to graduate and I didn't have time to pick up a really really fun hobby, I spent all this time as a spectator rather than a player.

So this is the beginning...lets start with "D" word: Dating

Recently, I have decided to stop dating and all that (if you know what I mean). I got tired of trying and it really began to show. After several attempts to stop dating over the past 2 years, I finally accomplished it. I am at that point now where it is a prominent impression given when talking with an interested party...

I visited a friend about 2 weeks ago and her son who is about 3 years older than me and who is my "self proclaimed psychoanalyst" said that I am "a depressing case." He was the one that asked me about my personal life, its not like i was complaining. I haven't since I decided to be true to myself and not even entertain the thought of admiring any cute or handsome face (I kept everything strickly business). My friend's son also said that I am too young to have given up on dating and meeting new people, he said that all you do is go to school, go to church and then play with your nieces , "when do you go out an have fun?!?" The funniest thing he told me was that I shouldn't be going through a midlife crisis with dating, at my age. I should be having fun all the time.

What he failed to realize, was that I couldn't stand the "instant" life style that the western world has protrayed outwardly, anymore. I felt like some of the people that I dealt with daily, have lost their natural minds: SEX SEX SEX...ALL ABOUT ME AND THE NOW....VANITY VANITY VANITY...GIMME GIMME GIMME...all that says to me is that they are not happy on the inside and they are trying to fill a void with really Stupid things (aarrgghh, just thinking about that makes me frustrated). I wanted to separate myself from the ugliness I was seeing in people. There are more things to life than superficial substances and ideas

Yesterday, this guy from school, opened nyash for me, and told me about myself in that aspect...CHEI!



Tell you more later, Good Night! (good morning, rather)